This is part of my day here in the mechanics shop. Bible, study, devo, coffee, and candle lit with music from the shabby playing in the background.
The past 24 hours has been ... unsettling to say the least.
Yesterday morning, baby Carter was taken to the hospital because of a fever? To be honest I didn't think much of it because I remember our boys getting fevers and my memory sees bottlefuls of pink Amoxicillin through many of those flashbacks. -- Long story short; he was admitted and then began this long ordeal of testing; even a spinal tap to rule out Meningitis! Hearing that word sparked complete fear in me as I have a dear friend who lost his Mother to that horrid word. Thankfully the tests came back negative,but he was put through so much... -- they poked and poked on him trying to get a vein for an iv and ended up putting it in his head. As the day wore on he was then sent by ambulance to children's hospital. At least there; we know if there really is something wrong... he's in a place specialized for children. ??? I guess they did xray's etc ... and all came back okay... other than saying he has gas and is constipated. He's still running a little fever and I guess that's what has everyone concerned? We know he's teething already so wouldn't that explain a fever? I hope if there is something wrong with him, they figure it out... -- please keep him in your prayers today. The kids too because I know they're trying to do the right thing.
With Trent gone yesterday; I was a shop girl again.
Today as well. It started pouring just as I opened the doors and flipped the light switch this morning. It sounded so good on the tin roof. I lit my candle, and settled into the chair behind the desk. My bible brought a good word to so many back and forth thoughts. I'm praying for Carter... and Trent and Kayla. ... For guidance and help today. I give thanks that even when we don't know what we're doing... or what's next; well...that God is already there. I'm reminded today, who to focus on. --And to keep going... forward to Him. No matter what our circumstances look like.
I carried my journal down here as well and jotted the word FOCUS in big fat letters. It's my one word today. Maybe it will be for more days too.... because it's been so off lately- that focus. Especially praying. I started praying a minute ago and then this mind wandered to the nachos I would fix for Myguy's supper and I wondered if the sour cream is out of date and did or didn't I take the hamburger meat out of the freezer?
Father please forgive me...
Show me your way today,
because it's what I want.
Your good way.
Help me re-focus on You.
With every person I speak with on the phone today,
and every person who walks through these doors;
help me walk in
Thank you for
the rain on this roof.
For helping my family through so much...
even when we don't understand.
I know and trust you are
now and tomorrow.