A few days ago I wrote in my journal what you can probably make out in the background of today's scripture picture. The next day I covered everything I'd written in gesso, and washes of paint. Colors that made me think... and see. Keeping an art journal is like recording the deepest places of my heart in layers of my every little day. Usually the messes of my life ... disappointments, heartaches, and many ways I screw up are confessed, and then covered with something prettier and colorful. Like Redemption!
Sunday morning we woke up and drove across town to a church we've been to before but are actually NOT members of. It's big and we really dont' know hardly anyone there, and once inside the sanctuary found seats on the back row. We sat down and were looking at the bulletin talking between ourselves and next thing I know this woman was standing behind my husband and starts rubbing his back. As in; giving him a back rub with both hands* Our eyes flashed to eachother and Myguy glances behind him and looks at the woman then looks back at me like ... "...I do NOT know this woman who is rubbin my back!" I felt my heart rate jolt a little and then I just giggled and looked at her and said,.... "Well he's never gonna want to leave now." (I know why did I say that? lololol ) She proceeded... I don't know how long- the seconds seemed like forever. Then ... next thing I know... I was getting me this really great back rub too! Yep... she went to rubbin the cares right outta my back as well! I took a big breath and let it out... and then she stopped. I thanked her ... and she just nodded and then went to her seat without sayin a word. Oh yes way Jose; she sure did!
I look at Myguy... and we didn't know what to say? I mean what can ya say after that????
And the music started and so we praised the LORD.
One of the songs I wish I could remember. Why didn't I write it down? But I remember hearing the word EVERYTHING in it... and that's when my tears started. It was this beautiful song... of worship... of following Him and giving Him my everything. Pure ... beautiful worship. Heart to heart... giving Him my all. .................................................... sweet worship.
Then message and sermon was on The "giving" of Jesus. Most of the scriptures were from John 14 and 15. Okay I gotta run find my notes. Seems like there's something I'm forgetting that I'm sposed to share. Found em!
Our eyes were opened more to giving like Jesus. It seemed to all boil down to the love more thing. That giving and loving ..-- especially when it's not deserved. It's a hard thing sometimes. At least for me. But I want to learn to model that. Like Him. And for Him. Because I don't deserve it either.
Loving others: I think sometimes it's just stepping out in faith to do what He says. Loving others in that way... when you don't always understand. Like giving a back rub to a stranger maybe? I don't know?...........
As we were walking out the doors, Myguy looked at me and said, "I think we got our feet washed today." I nodded and agreed... "I think so!" I told him that I looked at her a few times through the service, and afterwards had this desire to run to her and ... say thanks - better; .... because I know I got more than just a great back rub. But I don't think I was supposed to. It was a day to ... just receive. We were strangers and loved on. --Anyways.