Wednesday, March 11, 2009

I'll Go Anywhere with You........................Jesus, Be My Everything

Greetings and Holykisses,

Have you ever had a pebble in your shoe? ~ I had sand inside my shoe all day long. Pebbles... sand.... -- same difference. You try to ignore it but it's there... and it bugs you to the point that you have to take the time to STOP and remove it before you can go on. Thing is; This time, I couldn't shake it out. It was stuck in there all day long. I finally had to take the time to STOP and figure out how and why it's there. And now that I know... I think I'll keep it there awhile to remind me. ~~ So, in the future, if I begin to forget about it, I can slip them back on and walk awhile.... and remember.*

Something happened to me this week, that I think no I "hope" changed my life forever. .... I pray I'll never be the same.

I know God started this in me long ago, but today I realize that the sand started getting in my shoe about a year ago. I sat on the beach in Cancun for hours, just staring out at the water. I felt God's awesome power with every lap of the waves. And swimming there; made me feel even more small... and helpless. We had red flag days every day we were there, but we swam anyways. I'd get tired out, so fast, and a couple times Mike had to help pull me in. The undertow was so strong and the waves would either knock us down or try to drag us out further. I was mesmerized by the power of the water, and my God who created it all.

We walked the shoreline and I was overcome with awe. For a short time, I was in another world from what I was used to. Here ~ ; I was out of my element. And because of that I began to see outside my box. Even on the plane there, I had my nose pressed against the window , wanting to see "more." My mountain-top experience - ... at Sea.
My favorite thing to do there was walk in the sand. I couldn't stand it in my sandals, so I walked barefoot until the tops of my feet were so sunburned they swelled and reminded me of two fat little butterball turkeys. I then had to walk in the water or I couldn't stand the pain. But it still didn't matter because I was a fish out of water that was able to thoroughly enjoy my new environment. I forgot all worries, cares, and problems that I normally carried. I was too busy basking in Abba Father SONshine.

Boarding the plane to go back home, I picked up baggage that I should have left behind. My usual worries, problems and weights got packed in my carry-on. They all came back home with me. Then as the days wore into weeks, I started to forget my mountain top experience at Sea. I would forget to take the time to stop, and remember what's important. And more and more of the world kept creeping in. I've still been seeking God, but without realizing it, I was letting alot of the world in too.

A few weeks ago, I'd started studying my purpose. I saturated myself in the word, and immersed my heart in prayer. I want so badly to be plugged in to everything God has for me.
My prayers are being answered. I know I'm just a micro speck in this incredible world He created. I'm just me, but He did create us all for special purposes.

This week, He sprinkled more sand in my shoe. The King of the universe, used someone I'd just met, to get me to TAKE TIME and really STOP. This person in a sense has as little as most human beings can have, yet God used her to speak to me without saying a word. A divine meeting of hearts, ....we "connected." Spending time with her, I realized how spoiled I am. How shallow I am. How vain I am. How I take my life for granted. How I take my talents for granted, and do not use them to their fullest. Inspite of her limitations, God used her with power. Without, moving a muscle, ..... our hearts embraced, and for a second I felt mercy and grace. And even though I'm just a grain of sand, I know God's showing me that even one grain has purpose.

Mother Teresa said, " "We know only too well that what we are doing is nothing more than a drop in the ocean. But if the drop were not there, the ocean would be missing something."

I know God carried me back today with purpose and I'm thankful. With all my heart, I pray He blesses the special one He used to remind me to stop. May she bask in His SONshine.

I've been looking for a reason… I've been longing for a purpose…I'm losing all my meaning…I've run out of excuses.

Lord, it's hard to know You. I don't always see your plan / But holiness is calling me so take me as I am.

Chorus: You are my everything, you are the song I sing; I'll do anything for you / Teach me how to pray, to live a life of grace; I'll go anywhere with you / Jesus, be my everything.

Lord, I get so tired of the struggle within / I settle in complacency and I'm weighed down in my sin /

So lead me past emotion, 'cause they changed with the wind / I want to be a true disciple to daily choose Your hand.


Denise said...

Wow, I needed this today. You have touched my heart beyond belief. I love you.

Katy said...

This was just beautiful Lea! Thank you for sharing your heart with us. xoxoxo

Yolanda said...

This so ministered to me, as I prepare for the ocean as well...leaving some burdens behind, to bask in God's glory for a few weeks. To allow Him to love me, consume me, prepare me to return to the world HE chose me to live in.

Holy Kisses, Friend!


MidniteScrapper said...

Thank you so much for this post. I have been thinking of you lots lately. I think that there are reminders everywhere for us (like the sand or pebble), but for me - I end up getting used to it or adapting because of my laziness or unwillingness to change. Sometimes I think I need a reminder like they did in the OT days and wear something right in front of their face between their eyes almost. haha. Anyway, I can't ignore the pebble now after reading such a clear post. Oh and I added that song to my playlist long ago when I first heard it here. Great worship time.

Lynne (lynnesgiftsfromtheheart) said...

What a blessing to stop by your post today. Our lives have been turned upside down the last couple of days. Another challenge for us to meet. Thanks for sharing your open heart...hugs ~lynne~

From the Heart said...

Yes, we get carried away with the cares of life but I'm so glad I (and you) have a Heavenly Father that knows exactly how to bring us back. Your post was beautiful, so sincere and exhilerating. Thanks for sharing and reminding us not to forget where or how far we have come and WHO brought us this far. To God be the Glory.

LauraLee Shaw said...

Oh wow, beautiful post! I love your authenticity.

ShabbyInTheCity said...

Hey 'lil speck of sand! I made a silly recording at your house...all tired out from a toddler :)

Laurie Ann said...

Lea, I am moved to tears. May God bless you and keep that sand in your shoe, dear friend!

LisaShaw said...

You have a way of speaking into my heart either in a way that makes me laugh/smile or fills me with such love/food for my soul. Thank you dear friend. love you.

Deanna said...

thanks for sharing your heart today~ a beautiful heart after her Maker's heart. I'm encouraged.

Blessings In Him :O)

godsown said...

It ministered to my soul....
" His sprinkling of sand in our shoe...." Beautiful