Have you ever had a pebble in your shoe? ~ I had sand inside my shoe all day long. Pebbles... sand.... -- same difference. You try to ignore it but it's there... and it bugs you to the point that you have to take the time to STOP and remove it before you can go on. Thing is; This time, I couldn't shake it out. It was stuck in there all day long. I finally had to take the time to STOP and figure out how and why it's there. And now that I know... I think I'll keep it there awhile to remind me. ~~ So, in the future, if I begin to forget about it, I can slip them back on and walk awhile.... and remember.*
Something happened to me this week, that I
I know God started this in me long ago, but today I realize that the sand started getting in my shoe about a year ago. I sat on the beach in Cancun for hours, just staring out at the water. I felt God's awesome power with every lap of the waves. And swimming there; made me feel even more small... and helpless. We had red flag days every day we were there, but we swam anyways. I'd get tired out, so fast, and a couple times Mike had to help pull me in. The undertow was so strong and the waves would either knock us down or try to drag us out further. I was mesmerized by the power of the water, and my God who created it all.
We walked the shoreline and I was overcome with awe. For a short time, I was in another world from what I was used to. Here ~ ; I was out of my element. And because of that I began to see outside my box. Even on the plane there, I had my nose pressed against the window , wanting to see "more." My mountain-top experience - ... at Sea.
My favorite thing to do there was walk in the sand. I couldn't stand it in my sandals, so I walked barefoot until the tops of my feet were so sunburned they swelled and reminded me of two fat little butterball turkeys. I then had to walk in the water or I couldn't stand the pain. But it still didn't matter because I was a fish out of water that was able to thoroughly enjoy my new environment. I forgot all worries, cares, and problems that I normally carried. I was too busy basking in Abba Father SONshine.
Boarding the plane to go back home, I picked up baggage that I should have left behind. My usual worries, problems and weights got packed in my carry-on. They all came back home with me. Then as the days wore into weeks, I started to forget my mountain top experience at Sea. I would forget to take the time to stop, and remember what's important. And more and more of the world kept creeping in. I've still been seeking God, but without realizing it, I was letting alot of the world in too.
A few weeks ago, I'd started studying my purpose. I saturated myself in the word, and immersed my heart in prayer. I want so badly to be plugged in to everything God has for me.
My prayers are being answered. I know I'm just a micro speck in this incredible world He created. I'm just me, but He did create us all for special purposes.
This week, He sprinkled more sand in my shoe. The King of the universe, used someone I'd just met, to get me to TAKE TIME and really STOP. This person in a sense has as little as most human beings can have, yet God used her to speak to me without saying a word. A divine meeting of hearts, ....we "connected." Spending time with her, I realized how spoiled I am. How shallow I am. How vain I am. How I take my life for granted. How I take my talents for granted, and do not use them to their fullest. Inspite of her limitations, God used her with power. Without, moving a muscle, ..... our hearts embraced, and for a second I felt mercy and grace. And even though I'm just a grain of sand, I know God's showing me that even one grain has purpose.
Mother Teresa said, " "We know only too well that what we are doing is nothing more than a drop in the ocean. But if the drop were not there, the ocean would be missing something."
I know God carried me back today with purpose and I'm thankful. With all my heart, I pray He blesses the special one He used to remind me to stop. May she bask in His SONshine.
I've been looking for a reason… I've been longing for a purpose…I'm losing all my meaning…I've run out of excuses.
Lord, it's hard to know You. I don't always see your plan / But holiness is calling me so take me as I am.
Chorus: You are my everything, you are the song I sing; I'll do anything for you / Teach me how to pray, to live a life of grace; I'll go anywhere with you / Jesus, be my everything.
Lord, I get so tired of the struggle within / I settle in complacency and I'm weighed down in my sin /
So lead me past emotion, 'cause they changed with the wind / I want to be a true disciple to daily choose Your hand.