Sunday, July 28, 2013
Early to Rise
I could hardly wait to open my journal this morning. I'd been laying in bed with so many thoughts swirling inside ...Wonders... what if's; (only the good kind)- what if's with possibilities and courage attached. Things I want to learn... Places to see.... Dreams .... and gratitude too.
Funny how people dots we connect ... can be used to spur us on. Yesterday I wrote a new friend and made mention that I'd thought once about getting involved in master gardening; there's so much I want to learn. I heard however that you have to take a test after the classes .... -- so...I changed my mind. lol Its easy to nervously chuckle at that... but if I were to fess uP and be real about it... I'm just afraid of failure. With that in mind journaling this morning I can step back and see that fear is the very thing that usually holds me back.
While getting involved in a master gardener's program was just one fleeting thought; maybe it's something to ponder more on and pray about too.. Not so much as in making a bucket list but... living out loud the things I was created to become and see, and do.... --- After all; the clock is ticking, and.. well; you never know when someone could "run into the back of your wagon" -and in a blink of an eye, everything could change completely or... be over.
I have a blogger friend who's a mountain man and lives in Montana. Right now he's on the other side of the world... Africa! He left with $80.00 in his pocket... and one of his last facebook posts was: are you afraid?- I am. ;) He also wrote about fear being our enemy- I know he's right.
Thumbing through one of my soul journal pages where I dared to dream.... one of the entries says, I want to be brave. ... It holds true today; because I still do. If God called me to jump on a plane and fly to the other side of the world ... would I? I hope so.
I want to live the life that says yes.